What a Family Restoration Can Look Like–From a Friend Part 2

Pride goes before the fall

First, we could not agree on how to establish the value of the property.  There was the county value, which my brother said was way too high.  So, we said let’s get the property appraised.   He was not in favor of getting it appraised but stalled again at determining a value.  So my wife and I made the decision on our own to pay for an appraisal by a local certified appraiser.  Two responses followed from my brother.  First, he rejected our appraisal we provided because we didn’t get his approval on the appraiser we used, and second he said the “as is” appraisal was still beyond the market value of the property.  So, we suggested he go find his own appraiser, get the property appraised “as is” and come up with a value his appraiser would determine is fair but he rejected this idea because he did not want to pay for an appraisal.

I must confess, I was selfish as I responded to my brother’s hesitance to establish a value.  What I learned through the heated discussions was he was not able to pay us anything for his half of the property.  He had no ability to get the funds regardless of an agreed established value.  So, in response to this we offered to finance them for a year, but we still needed to settle on a value.  Every month that past my wife and I were paying for half of all the property expenses on a property we did not want.  This was extremely frustrating since our available resources were being used up each month.  I was angry, and I was justified in my anger!  Right??

My wife and I talked and listened to godly counsel.  Again, I could have had the courts settle the matter because we had mom’s will stating how the property was to be divided, but we didn’t want to spend more money on attorney and court costs.  Legally we were obligated to split the expenses as long as both names were on the title to the property.  We felt like we were being held hostage on a property we did not want, but “deserved” half based on the will.  This series of events was consuming me.  Day and night, even at work, I would rationalize that I was right, he was wrong; he had to change.  The problem was I could not change him, or the situation without legal action, and we were not taking this action.

I finally reached a breaking point and called my brother and told him I was going to settle this and he and I would both be happy, and I hung up!  I called the county register of deeds and asked them to send me a quit-claim deed.  We completed the process of deeding our half of the property over to my brother and filed it with the court.  We had the completed deed of property mailed to my brother from the Register of Deeds Office without letting him know what we had done.  I felt much relief once that was done, but the initial response from my brother was not what I expected.  He was angry that I took it upon myself to take this action without consulting with him.   Now, he was obligated for all the expenses and upkeep on the property.   There was money left in mom’s checking account. I withdrew half the available funds and took my name off the account.  I was done!  I wrote an email to my brother letting him know I would  I would like half of the value of the property to fulfill dad and mom’s wishes if he could ever  do so, but I was washing my hands of the monthly obligation.

Two years past since I transferred the property to him, a total of four years since mom died.  No conversations, no holidays, no communication of any value had happened between my brother and me during this time.  I was filled with anger, bitterness, and resentment toward my brother for what he had done to “cheat” me out of what “I deserved”.  I had no desire to re-engage with him or his wife for any reason.  All these experiences from the time we left to serve with FamilyLife, and all the bad experiences settling this estate were stored in my mind and spirit as unforgiveness.   I could not participate in communion at church.  How could I walk forward as a visual acceptance of the sacrifice God had provided through Christ death on the cross, and be unwilling to make peace with my brother again?  For one and a half years I sat in my chair during communion and prayed my brother would change.   Was there anything wrong with this picture?

You can see the pattern in my life; I would work to resolve a problem my way and in my strength.  My pride and selfishness contrasted with God’s example of love He gave us in Jesus God was not finished teaching me this difficult lesson.

Consider James’s question in his letter to believers living among Gentiles who were facing trials and persecution, “What causes quarrels and what causes fights among you?  Is it not this that your passions are at war within you?  You desire and do not have, so you murder.  You covet and cannot obtain, so you fight and quarrel.  You do not have because you do not ask.  You ask and you do not receive, because you ask wrongly, to spend (it) on your passions”. (ESV 4: 1-2)

I received encouragement and counsel from my accountability partner at FamilyLife, close family members, co-workers at FamilyLife, and other men in a men’s group at church, and our pastor.  All of them were giving me sound biblical advice to move forward with forgiving my brother and to restore the relationship.  Spiritual relationships, not personal property or money, are the only things that will matter when this physical life is over.  Then a haunting question came, “what if I should die or my brother die before I forgave him?”  God reminded me what His Son Jesus taught us through the Lord’s Prayer, “And forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors.”  And what followed was even more convicting.  “For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.  But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.”

God was finally able to humble me to make a call to my brother to set a time we could meet face to face. The goal was to discuss all that had transpired between us over the past ten years and even prior to that.  It was going to be a most difficult call for me to make so I sent an email instead.  Fear of the response I would get filled my mind.  What would my brother tell me?  Would we have to rehash everything again and reach the same conclusion?  What if he told me how I was handling the estate was wrong and he was right?  This struggle was a spiritual struggle for me, between my selfish desires and the Holy Spirit’s desires for restoration, and I had to confront it.  I asked many people to pray for me as I approached this conversation.

When I heard back from my brother, he simply responded by saying, “Based on our last conversation I don’t see that getting together will be of any benefit.”  He was right in his perspective!  Base on our last conversation which was three months earlier, on my birthday of all days, I raised the ugly question of settling the estate.  It did not turn out well at all.  My wife, who was listening to the conversation, was telling me not to bring the question up, but I did not listen.  I had to make my point.  Now, something was different or changing in my heart.  God was doing His work in me and I knew I had to reassure my brother the conversation together would be better, maybe even good.   When I responded to his email I told him that he would be pleased with a meeting and we would both benefit.  I sign the email, “With Love, Your Brother”.

The Miracle of God’s work of reconciliation

After five weeks we were able to schedule a time we could meet half way between our respective homes.  The date was set for May 5, 2014.  I shared this with many of the people who knew about my struggles and asked them to pray, that I would not slip back into the flesh during the visit with my brother.  There must have been over 40 people praying for me as I drove to Broken Arrow Oklahoma to meet my brother.

Part of this testimony is how God orchestrated details around my specific need as I approached the day.  My wife and I send out monthly newsletters to our ministry partners.  Two weeks prior to my meeting with my brother we wrote our letter in response to new information we had learned about two or our supporting churches having a conflict over similar issues.  These churches did not know each other and are located hundreds of miles apart, but their issues were parallel to each other; a conflict over differences with their respective pastors.  When I wrote the letter it was all about Peacemaker Ministries, about the biblical approach to address conflict between believers and the help available to anyone who wants to resolve conflict with the reconciliation.  When I went back and read my letter, God opened my eyes that the letter was written to me.  I had written to our partners to challenge them in right thinking, but God intended for it to be written to me in preparation of meeting with my brother.

Another piece of God’s intervention was through FamilyLife Today radio broadcast.  The three broadcasts just prior to my trip to Broken Arrow featured Dr. Tim Muelhoff and based on his new book, I Beg to Differ: Navigating Difficult Conversations with Truth and Love.  I must say all three of these radio programs were meant for me as God brought me to understand what His best for me was.   Dr. Muelhoff addressed these four things:

Reclaiming the Power of Words
What Causes Verbal Dams to Rupture?
Managing and Expressing Emotions in the Midst of Disagreement
Spiritual Disciplines…Power to Resolve Conflict

This was precisely what I needed, and God knew in advance these programs would be aired on these days so I could listen and be prepared for the visit with my brother.  I was challenged to consider the best in my brother.  I was challenged to enter the conversation with the only objective of reaching an understanding of how he felt about all our conflict, and how he viewed the issues that spanned the years.  These were never my motives before.  My only motive in previous conversations was to get my point across and make him see I was right, and he needed to change.  With these three  pieces before me and surrounding me—fervent prayer, the truth I had written  in our monthly letter, and Dr. Muelhoff’s wisdom and approach to navigating a difficult conversation—I entered the conversation with my brother, Monday May 5, 2014, at Stonewood Café and Coffee Shop in Broken Arrow, OK.

We began our conversation with small talk about work, diet plans we were using, a family reunion that was coming up, vacations, etc., for the first four hours.  I think neither one wanted to pose the question that would begin the conversation about all the hurt nor division that had plagued our relationship.  As I prayed in my Spirit I sensed the time was right so I initiated. “I really am thankful you agreed to meet with me today.  This has been on my mind for many months, but I have not been willing to call you and speak with you.  God has brought me to a place where I understand what He truly has done for me, so in response, my only objective for our conversation today is to listen to you so I can understand how you have felt through all that we have faced in our relationship since Nedra and I joined the staff of FamilyLife, and how you feel about the way we handled dad and mom’s estate.  I just want to listen.”

When he began to speak, his words were kind and gentle.  He spoke from the heart as he describe all he had learned and how he had grown in the years since we joined staff.  He shared the struggles he and his wife had experienced as took a new position, out of state.  How they had viewed those decisions incorrectly. .  He continued to share how he and his wife had changed their minds about the property, and they were no longer planning to move there.   They now realize the importance of living close to kids and grandkids and our parents’ house did not meet that requirement.  He went on to say he was truly sorry for how he had responded to us  when we joined staff, and now realized his forthrightness was motivated by selfish desires and a lack of understanding  about how God was dealing with us.  He then offered a heart-felt apology and asked if I would forgive him.

When he finished, nearly an hour had passed.  All I had believed, stressed over, judged against, and things I had been unwilling to forgive were all out on the table.  It was a very emotional and spiritually uplifting time, and it was time for my response!  As I began, I told him what had taken place in my life over the past several years.  I shared how I had struggled with forgiveness and how my relationship with Christ had not been good because I could not take communion with a heart of unforgiveness.   I told him how God was here with us and all the people who were praying for our visit today, and how in obedience to God I was to reconcile with him today.  What followed was my heart-felt, humble apology for my child-like responses through the years of disagreement between us.  I confessed to him I had been unwilling to pursue a renewed relationship with him because I justified my attitude toward him and what I selfishly deserved. I was not willing to forgive him because of all the hurtful words we had exchanged and the actions that had followed. It was then I said, “I am sorry, will you forgive me?”

It was like we both had a new lease on life.  We both were able to experience freedom in our relationship that we had not known for many years.  We both extended true forgiveness to each other in light of the forgiveness we both have been given by our Father in Heaven.  We ended the six hour visit with a huge bear hug that accompanied the words, “I Love You Brother”.

I am so thankful for all those who have walked with us through this trial.  The enemy did not win even though he had a strong grip in my life over many years.  As the Father, through Christ, promises; “And we know that for those who love God, all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose”. ESV Romans 8:28

In Paul’s letter to the church at Corinth, which experience much immaturity and disagreement among believers, he writes; “When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child.  When I became a man, I gave up childish ways.  For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face; now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.  So now faith, hope and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love”.

I cannot answer why it took me so, so long to work through this lesson especially when I was teaching conflict resolution to others and encouraging forgiveness in marriage and family relationships.  I do not know why I harbored unforgiveness against my brother over spoken words and money.  I cannot justify my actions any longer and confess I was and still may be, a hypocrite as I live out my Christian life.  But this I know, God is a Sovereign God and He will not allow His word to be given without truth and application, and His forgiveness is real because He paid the price for my disobedience against Him and against others.  I am truly free, and I am thankful for the new found freedom recently found through the reconciliation with my brother.

A final quote from Pastor Rick Bezet – “In our hearts’ position, we stay face down, prostrate before the Lord, we will never fall from that position”.

With a Grateful Heart,
Randy Sharp

 

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